ok, this is an angry, bitter entry... for reasons soon to be known by all you dedicated BITSWD readers. (slight chuckle).

Yesterday, section finals. I went through both my rounds and I thought it was the best times that I've performed my piece except for parent night.

pete comes out and says, "I'm sorry, your first round went bad, you didn't make it [to finals]."
I was in shock. m first round had 3 bad/mediocre people in it so I was so confident that I would get at least a 3. I asked what I got in my first round and I got a 5...out of 6. I'm like...oh god. Then I asked what I got in my second round.
2nd place.

Everyone else made it into finals except Jozette. Even Nick. Nick, for cryin' out loud.

Then everyone's hugging me saying that you have next year and all that shit. fuck that. I wanted it this year, and I worked MY ASS OFF SO HARD!!! I did! I did well at all my tournaments before this. what the fuck?!! And you know what really hurts me? the girl who (no offense) sucked the most in my first round... got a 2. I'm almost thinking that MAYBE the judge mixed us up because we were wearing similar outfits and looked kinda alike, plus she was right after me.

But Stormi and Tim got first place in their catagories and Nick and Emily got honorable mentions. And, oh gosh, I'm SO proud of all them.

I just wish I understood why I got a 5 in one round and a 2 in the other.

I just wish I had a different judge first round.

I wish I had another chance.

I put this on a comment thing but I really want a whole bunch of us to get together and go out to eat or something. Drive the employees crazy! Sound good? eh? Friday after speech? maybe?

let me know...

swow. it went by so fast. Yesterday was the last speech tournament. 2 months certainly passed quickly. And to be honest, I didn't think I was going to miss it (with not being able to sleep in on saturdays and the added stress) but as soon as I got together with everyone and realized..."wow, last tournament", I was sad. sniff sniff. but we still have 3 more events left. parent night, sub-sections and sections. I'm sure eveyone will get into sections...although, I myself dont know what to expect since I never went to sub sections last year. hmm.

the tournament went really well. It was one out of the two single entry tournaments that I participated in so...no stress and I actually got to see my competition which I really enjoy. The awards cerimony was really f-ed up. They had a transparency...when the gym lights were ON. ok... hello? so, I was the only one who could see the names (because of my rockin glasses...oh yeah, I'm a geek) and I even had to squint. so when prose comes up, I search and dont see it and am like, 'damn' but then I see it and wooo! I ended up getting 10th but thats ok because this was a big tourney so...yay.

what else has happened the last couple of weeks? hmm. all my choir stuff. Solo/Ensemble contest was on the 6th. That went VERY well. I got 'best at site' which was a goal that I wanted to accomplish before I graduated...well I did! wee!
Then All-State auditions... eeh. I dont think I'm gonna make it in. In fact, I'm 90% sure I WONT, but its ok... I deserve what I get... I just got too nervous during my sightsinging section and... yeah. but I got one oppertunity right? And lots of people dont even get that. But I'm still hoping...

And then this week I'm going to be working my ass off because its the end of the term. And I really really really want to get 3 A's and a B this term. But that means I have to do some major extra credit/butt kissing in French 2. I'm at 87%...I'll do anything! And Then I have my choir concert on Thursday night...eeh. which means having to wake up early (again) on Tuesday and Thursday for freakin chamber.

Now I'm just sitting and putzing. But I actually have half of my homework done! I'm proud! Now I just have to study and work through some problems for chemistry. :P

First speech tournament of the season.

I was nervous, I got over that pretty quickly. It really was SO much fun! But, we got our first piece of "hardware" today for duo. Thank you so much Cortney, for being ever so generous and letting me have it! They should've had 2... And everyone did SO well!! You all ROCK!!! (Tim, you shoulda got one..., like I said before, I want to be a lesbian and adopt!!) 

Cortney, "YOU THE MAN!"

wee!

Then went and saw Triple Expresso with Tim and his family. It was SOOOO FUNNNY! shadow puppets rock!!!

what a great day...

I'm sure Tim wont mind if I brag about him...

ok, so today is our 8 month. Its not like super huge, but each month anniversary is very special, for me at least, because, heck... before Tim, I hadn't been in any sort of a relationship for more than a month. and I think the same goes for him too. and now its 8 months with us.
whew.
not saying that its all been completely smooth, we've had our share of little bumps, but doesn't everyone??
but anyway, I'm getting off track...

so today, at school, neither of us mentioned it.  I dont know why I didn't say anything, I guess maybe to see if he had remembered. so between 3rd and 4th, I give him a hug and without me noticing he had slipped a note into my pocket. then I just said "Happy 8 months!". And he pulled back a little and looked at me kind of funny and mumbed something like, "Eight? I thought it was seven..." and then he tries to get to note out from my pocket and I ask him what was up, and I saw the note, and I started laughing and calling him a goof. I really didn't care, and still dont care that he forgot which month...there's been so many...lol, but then we both were laughing like idiots... it was great.

Then he came over for about an hour or so before I had to leave for the concert, and did a bunch of talking about this week and Valentine's Day and that whole choas of a weekend soon to come. ooh I'm excited! Then I was asked what  I wanted for Valentine's Day and I said "all I want is a card and 'a rose and a daisy' " and he looked at me just like I hade stolen the world from him, and he said "you're a terrible person!" I laughed and asked why, and he just said, "make sure you forget about what you just said..."

so the concert was ehh on our part, the only part I liked was Dan's solo :D , but I really liked the orchestra and one band piece. It made me think of what it would have been like if I would've kept with the violin and the trumpet. ::sigh::

so I was walking out with gram and she said she hadn't seen Tim come to the concert, which he said he was gonna attend, so I was a little sad. But then I hear my name and there he was on the other side of some lockers. And I asked if he caught the concert and he said he did but he came a little late so he just stayed in the back. Then he pops out wrapped up flowers, (I'm beeming at this point) and I open them up and it was 'a rose and a daisy'. 
And I look up and he says, "you stole my idea for tonight..."

I have one word to sum all this up:

WEEEEEEEE!